A POEM – To all Those NICU First Time Dads

A POEM – To all those NICU first time dads

By Samuel Wilson

 

To all those NICU first time dads,

Your journey will be tough

You’ll cry and laugh and probably yell

‘why can’t I wake up from this hell?’

This nightmare I feel trapped inside…

This fear filled incubated ride.

 

Where life and death lock horns each day

Where you dread the words consultants say

Yet yearn to hear, you need to try

To understand, to reconcile.

‘Why her? Why him? Why us…WHY ME?

Why can’t this nightmare cease to be?’

Yet…

 

Despite the bleeping sounds and lights

Where fluorescent bulbs merge days and nights

In spite of vital readings dropping

And pale blue lips and small hearts stopping.

 

Even with the daily resuscitations

And crash teams sprinting from nurses stations

 

Even with the phototherapy and scans

And long lines, CPAP, feeding plans Through NG, NJ tubes so frail,

 

This tiny girl, her skin so pale

 

And hydrocephalus and drains

From in her spine to ease her pains

Of swelling brains, please stop…no more.

Those words: IVH Grade 4

 

To all those NICU first time dads:

 

Despite this, all of this you’ll smile

And find the strength to reconcile

Those darkest times with future hopes

Of climbing frames and skipping ropes

And realise that markers change

And joyous moments mean so much more,

Where cooing smiles and kicking limbs

Mean more than they ever would before.

 

She fought so hard

To be with you:

Shouldn’t you show the same fight too?

 

Dig deep and go the extra length

And find the will and find the strength

To show the care and love they crave

They’ve already shown how to be brave

 

Consider how your wife has been,

And how she’s fed and nursed and cleaned

Your little child through day and night

And pushed through fear and hurt and fright

 

Take courage from each other here

And share a laugh and share a tear

And soon perhaps just share a beer

And take a trip out to Ikea

And do those normal things each year

That new dads do without the fear

As the pain will pass, it fades away,

With every hour, with every day

Just the wonder of your child will stay.

 

Be strong, for both your child & wife

Enjoy your special, wondrous life.

 

Copyright 2016

Samuel Wilson

 

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