A POEM – To all those NICU first time dads
By Samuel Wilson
To all those NICU first time dads,
Your journey will be tough
You’ll cry and laugh and probably yell
‘why can’t I wake up from this hell?’
This nightmare I feel trapped inside…
This fear filled incubated ride.
Where life and death lock horns each day
Where you dread the words consultants say
Yet yearn to hear, you need to try
To understand, to reconcile.
‘Why her? Why him? Why us…WHY ME?
Why can’t this nightmare cease to be?’
Despite the bleeping sounds and lights
Where fluorescent bulbs merge days and nights
In spite of vital readings dropping
And pale blue lips and small hearts stopping.
Even with the daily resuscitations
And crash teams sprinting from nurses stations
Even with the phototherapy and scans
And long lines, CPAP, feeding plans Through NG, NJ tubes so frail,
This tiny girl, her skin so pale
And hydrocephalus and drains
From in her spine to ease her pains
Of swelling brains, please stop…no more.
Those words: IVH Grade 4
To all those NICU first time dads:
Despite this, all of this you’ll smile
And find the strength to reconcile
Those darkest times with future hopes
Of climbing frames and skipping ropes
And realise that markers change
And joyous moments mean so much more,
Where cooing smiles and kicking limbs
Mean more than they ever would before.
She fought so hard
To be with you:
Shouldn’t you show the same fight too?
Dig deep and go the extra length
And find the will and find the strength
To show the care and love they crave
They’ve already shown how to be brave
Consider how your wife has been,
And how she’s fed and nursed and cleaned
Your little child through day and night
And pushed through fear and hurt and fright
Take courage from each other here
And share a laugh and share a tear
And soon perhaps just share a beer
And take a trip out to Ikea
And do those normal things each year
That new dads do without the fear
As the pain will pass, it fades away,
With every hour, with every day
Just the wonder of your child will stay.
Be strong, for both your child & wife
Enjoy your special, wondrous life.